Now look inside this simple dream of mine

Im bored :D!!!!

Mwah, i have coursework to do but I can't be arsed! What can i do?

I guess i'll write in here for a bit and tell you about my fantastical week, the one that changed my life!

Monday I woke up and Simon Cowell was in my room, he told me i looked like the bride of Chucky. So became a 'look a like' and was famous by tuesday.
Tuesday evening, I skipped my mission to Mars with Joey Jordison to go to Jam night. Which was too crowded yet oddly empty without darling SnikpoH! So after sharing a few kisses with sexy steffan, I left early and caught my midnight ride to Mars with Garfield!

Finally, today mine and cerys' marriage was complete, and we are now officially TOGETHER!!!! Mwah... funky...she's mine, so bugger off you bunch of stealers ¬¬

Mwahahahaha, im so bored... Wasn't my half week great? Don't I rock? Bet you wished you rocked as much as me eh?

Pow!! x

Pah, I know all i'm doing latly is moaning about how 'confused' I am

But...

It all sucks big fat hairy donkey balls and i really don't care! Mwah, im gonna have some fun!

Au revoir mon amis! xxx

I'm ill...

On the prowl.

When one is in a crowd
Full of besotted young fans
One can feel threatened
And out of their league.

In truth, one is in league,
It's the challenge that they seeks
Why else does one pick
Such a deeply wanted man?




It's late, im bored, it sucks, i know.

"If life was as easy as you
I'd be rolling in the stars..."

Funky huh? I think i'm gonna make 'em into lyrics or a poem.

Life rocks.
The one person is way too confusing though. ¬¬ I give up.
I gotta do cw so au revoir.

xxx

Highlight of this week? Hmm... It's been quite a shit week really. That classed as a highlight?

I had a laugh at Jam night. I was so down that day, but events that night made me happy.

Hmm, what else has happened... I've made up with my dad... Oh, and Ashton is one step away from walking. I can't wait to hold him. I swear i'm addicted...
I think not being able to see him for over two weeks is whats made me feel so down... Jeez, I'm attached!! :(

I'm addicted to 'Curses' by bfmv. Especially the lyrics... I feel I can relate to them y'know?

Agh... Went to Orchestra this morning, t'was fun...

Oh, and we are having Irish dancers accompanying us (Bottoms Heavy) at the Festival. Very cool.

Ummmmmmmmm.... Ok this entry sucks, all i'm doing is complaining, oh well. Who cares? Not me.

Adios freaks.

I rock. And i'm so happy!!!


xxx<3

I have a headache >.<

Last night rocked! Jess and Cerys came up too =D!

T'was the best so far i think. We were up 'til 4.30 messing about, drinking and watching L Word 2. Rhiannon is obsessed I tell you! lol.

I know I fell asleep on the settee, while I was led on Rhi and SnikpoH. Teehee.
Apparently i fell asleep before the others too, and supposedly i talk in my sleep o.O "Put it in the comet box" o.O? lol.

I want to post a picture of SnikpoH jumping me, and my surprised face lol, but it's on Cerys's camra.

Love you guys, thanks for a great night xxxxxx <3

Sleep over at my house tonight :D We're gonna party and have some fun cause theres only moi, SnikpoH and Rhi, but it's better that way anyway.

We've figured it out lol, After a few bottles;

Rhi will become sad and start crying about a certain someone ;)
SnikpoH will either be hyper again and start flashing, or, seeing that there're no guys, either be moping along side Rhi about dick head ****, or being really happy and excited about the new whats his face.
I on the other hand will also start crying, about missing Ashton. And confess all my worries about facing my ****** tomorrow.

So in the end, A huge hug and alot of crying lol.

Aren't we sad? lol... Well... we are, we're upset o.O

I didn't fail my maths GCSE!!!! OMFG!!! =DDDD!!!

I seriously thought I had!!!

When Cerys told me I was so happy!! ie I was dancing >.<

ONE MARK OFF A 'B'!!! =O! I had 174, and the pass mark for a 'B' is 175!

But i'm so happy with my C! All those extra tutoring lessons worked!

Ok, I'm really CHUFFED!!!

Hugs for everyone, if i haven't seen you yet. Hell, you can have another if I already have!!

<33333

Yea... I'm nervous... Maths GCSE results tomorrow...

There's a good probability that I've failed.

I mean it's not so bad 'cause I won't have to sit the high tear paper in March, just restart my tutoring lessons and achieve a good grade on the re-sit...

Agh... *Nail biting*

I feel sick...

I rock. I'm so perfect that I don't give a fuck about not being wanted.
I realise it was his fault now. He told me not to come down anymore, so he can apologize to me! 'Cause I didn't do anything wrong, did I? I Just stood up for myself and didn't let him walk all over me!

I promise I won't mope about it any more. I'm back happy hunnys!!! =D

Just come up with this off the top of my head.
As i said in the title, I know I'm morbid, But i speak the truth, and I see it.

Animal Testing.

Delusional. It's the struggle.
Snarling in the throat.
Pupils dilate, all in fear.
Their screams become silent.
Frothing at the mouth.
Nerves breaking, colliding.
Breaking away.
The spine arching.
The muscles fitting.
This feeling, Too dull.
Too sharp.
If only they could cry.
Express what they need.
But they can't.
None of them can.
They try to bare it.
But they can't.
They're dead now.
Next one.

I aint got a ticket to see Bullet :'(

Ok, so I haven't updated in a while, so what?

Well here's an update of my xmas and new years...

- Xmas eve was nice. I got to spend it with my mum and amanda.
- Xmas day was ok I guess, I wasn't really into the spirit, until I got to the presents =P. Went down my dads for the night. Ashton loved his prezzi and his card. He's got four teeth now!!! So cute!!!
- Had a party planned for new years... It fell through though. Still, I had eight bottles of vodka to myself! Suckers =P... Nah, I only got through two lol.
- Boxing day was spent all on meh lonesome. I had to do meh mums makeup and hair for her to go out. T'was fun when I suggested the black eyeshadow... Nah, she looked stunning fair play <3.

- Back to school and i'm bogged down with CW >.< I finally understand how to set out the Drama Portfolio! lol. Took me long enough.

- What else, what else, what else?... Oh, The bottoms heavy ensemble was awesome. Only me and Tom came from Aber, but I got to know this girl in the same desk as me. Can't remember her name >.< She's got a good vibrato on cello... Fair play to her. Not as good as mine though ;P just kiddin'. The first heat of the competition is in Cwmbran, the second is in Birmingham, and the finals is in Albert Hall in London! Oooo, I hope we get through!! <3

Jam night was eventful ;P

I went to see enter shikari last night at TJ's. We didn't actually get to see them >.< Still, Shape my addiction was fun, I'm a fan. Oh, and I met an awesome new friend there - Tom, from Whatsyglass =D. Teehee.

I might be going to the Kerrang gig! Bullet for my valentine, Hawthorn heights, and some other bands I don't really give a shit about =P. Any of you got Geriants Number? I wanna see if he's still got the ticket...

Anyway, I'm bored. I wouldn't be if I hadn't argued with my dad, and come home early...Like 7 hours early *Major crying*

That's me done anyway. xxx

MR SHEPARD BROKE MY BLOODY CELLO STRING AND FUCKING LAUGHED!!! THE BASTARD...

Christmas concert tonight lol. T'is gonna suck; 'Orchestra, Choir, Orchestra, Carol, Choir and solos in-between' WTF?! What's the point!? He does it every year and it looks terrible!

*Cry* I have no A string... And i've got 'Bottoms Heavy' cello ensemble on Saturday! There's no way I’m gonna find a sting by then.

The bastard, he didn't even apologise!

Agh...

btw - I'm still ill :'(

I've bought GHD straighteners from ebay!!! Agh! Meh hair is going to be straight from now on!! Well... as soon as i figure out how to use 'em... Will i look emo?!... Na, not possible, i hope...

Most people know i'm an ebay adict right? The other day i bought god knows how much L Word stuff, web cam, and a Marilyn Manson limited edition thing... Just 'cause i was upset!! I need a restraint...

Well I got this idea off Beth. I was bored and read her whole live journal >.< I wasn't even mentioned once... Not surprising really.

Why did I get this journal again? I have nothing to say... Except Adam and Andrew's song 'Emo Kid' rocks.

Peace out.